Chapter 1 – Hanging by a Thread
“She left him there, alone… ” Aargh, that won’t work, too clichéd. How about, “He waited patiently…” No…
Choosing an opening line for a story proves to be the hardest task any author can perform. My name is Tristan, this is my story. Most autobiographies are tales of great splendor and triumph. This is however a story of failure, deceit, loss and insanity.
I was once a child, as most men were, with a normal upbringing and an excess of imaginary friends, fantasies and fables. Creating fiction was a part of who I was. Imaginary friends would accompany me to dances, drive me around and buy me liquor. Okay, that was a joke, I wasn’t insane. Although my friends were mostly figments of my overactive imagination.
Fast forward a few years my life spiralled onto a path of destruction, liquor became the imaginary friend who packed a punch. He consumed me and filled me, destroying me from the inside out. Thousands of broken bottles lead to other painful endeavors and mistakes. I had to give up eventually, I had to stop. However this story is not about my triumph over alcohol or how I stopped hurting those close to me. No, this story is about the sadness, suffering and pain I threw myself into. If only I’d known my past would be back in a way that only God could see coming.
The day she came into my life I had been sober for almost three years, that triumph I can only praise Jesus for. What I did later, I can only thank myself for. She came like a wildflower into an orchid, she was different, a cut above the rest, the cream of the crop, the cherry on the bottom because the last cherry is always the best. Let’s call her Juliet; her name is something I won’t give away.
One year, we were married, three more, our first child on the way. Life snuck up on me, gave her to me along with two children, a place to work and all I could want. I worked as a publisher and loved every moment. Nothing could go wrong in this fantasy life of mine. That was until it did. Along with the novel came heartache and disappointment. My perfect life was hanging by a thread. I was, am, hanging by a thread.
